想你..........

又是一个寒冷的黑夜，我独自座在窗台前，静静地想你，想知道你在做什么，想知道你有没有想我，想知道你有没有凝视远方的时候，你的眼前是否划过我的身影，想知道每晚当你走进甜美的梦乡，是否知道我在梦中等你。

真的很想你，很喜欢静静地座在这里想你，我不知道这样静静地想一个人，对方是否真切地感受到，但我真的愿意这样静静地为你守候，真的很想在心底为你泡上一杯浓浓的咖啡，驱散你脸上的倦容。

真的很想你，想你想得心痛，我以为没有尝试过思念的人，不会理解这种痛，无法体会这种忧，思念之苦，思念之痛，尽管我知道这样静静地想你，漆黑的夜无法将我的心思传得很远，但我相信，无论多远，你一定能够听见，而且会常常感到一种莫明的心动。

真的很想你，如果可以，我愿化作空中的一片白云，飞过千山万水，停留在你的那片天空，真实地感受你的气息，默默地支撑你的一片天空，我不会打扰你的清静，只想用我真诚的心，在遥远的角落静静地想你。

我真的很喜欢这样想你，也许我的思念是一种美丽，也许我的思念是一种等待，等待一个遥不可及的梦，我知道，我不能渴求，我只希望我能一直这样静静地想你。

我不能不想你，思念不知道多少次挣破忧郁的情网，因为我相信，真爱永不会陈旧，思念永不会搁浅，遥远的距离，我唯一能做的，就是不停地想你。

想写的很多，但这种思念真的无法准确的用文字表达，心中莫明的怅然再度升起，真的很想说一句，你可知道，我正思念思念我最心爱的你……

思念是无止境的！

Dinner with Uncle at Jogoya Starhill

Last Monday >>> 15/12/2008...
was a memorable day for me and uncle.....
we had our dinner at Jogoya....
Jogoya ---> is a buffet style Japanese food Restaurant which located in Starhill Hotel at Bukit Bintang.....
It was our first time tried out Japanese food....
reason being i dont like to take Japanese food at all....
I am Kelantanese...prefer to have Thai's style food instead....
However, after persuaded by uncle.....
he said he gonna treat me...so ??? i just said YES lo....
kekekee....
Each of us ride our own motorcycle to the destination....
Before reach Starhill....a small incident happened to me...
a car with the high speed was nearly impinge on my motorcycle when i try to make a u-turn....
I remembered....Uncle shouted at me loudly....."CAR !!!!!!"
when i turned to see the car....a brake's sound...."eeeeeeeeee...."
At that moment....my mind totally blank......
i just looked at the car.....getting near and near.....
it was within an inch of one's life....
Luckily....the driver managed to stop the car.....
Then only i wake up.....and drive my little to a side.....
fuihhhhh~~~~ safe.....damn dangerous.....
i really thought that i cant escape at that moment and waiting the car to bang me....
Really really so lucky.....then uncle started to keep on scolding me.....
i know he was in shocked.....so i just stay silent and smile at him when he scolding me.....
finally he canot tahan....."Still laughing ?! u know how dangerous it was ?!"
Then i just answered him...."Kekekeke.....let's go lo......"
After we reached Starhill.....uncle still talked the hind leg off a donkey.....
Cannot tahan...but...my heart feel kinda sweet.....
he really scare of losing me....wahahaha.....
We still proceed with our plan to have the dinner.....
Arrived Jogoya Restaurant doorway.....
ciak lat lo....so many people....this time dunno have to queue how long d....
we fast fast went to queue up....within 5 min came to our turn...
so fast...so lucky ar today.....kekekeke....
Then we start makan makan liao lo...
went into the restaurant....the environment is not bad....
But....we have no time to enjoy the environment....
cz the buffet time is limit to hours only....
We fast fast take all the food....wah...so many food....
then i instructed Uncle..."U take the food over there...i in-charge the food here...ok !!!"
I straight away run off before uncle can give me any response....wahaha...
cz it was so excited to see so many food.....
then i just take and take and take...then put on our table...
then went to take again....so happy to take so many food....
Dunno how many rounds....until the table cannot fit another plate...
then only i stopped and started to eat......
keep on eating and eating and eating.....
until clear up all the food the table....then we went to take again.....
wahahaaa.....After 3rd round....wah....damn full.....then only realize that....
oh no...forgot to take a picture.....then we proceed to take the sweeties.....so many choices....
i only manage to took the photo for the sweeties and some of the food.....
the sweeties are not bad.....especially the ice-cream...taste nice....
the whole night....we just eat and eat and eat non-stop.....
Finally around 9pm...it was the last call from the reception...
we end our makan makan that night.....really really full.....kekeke....


Some of the sweeties.....


Coconut drink.....very nice......


Me and Uncle !!!! satisfied after took so many food......kekeke.....

A boring day.....

today is 14/12/2008...now the clock is showing 17:27....
what a damn boring day today.....
woke up in the morning around 10.30pm....
after that....keep on watching movie.....
do nothing at home.....lying on the bed....
was thinking bout Chinese new year....
wahahaa....seems like i still a little bit puerility....
never mind...as long as i m happy.....kekeke....
come to 1pm.....my stomach started to making noisy.....
quickly wake up and went to the kitchen...
luckily yesterday i bought some chicken and vegetable at Jusco....
Hmmm....lets cook soup....
so that tonite uncle can have it when back from work.....
within 1 an hour...finally my soup is ready....
put the mee sua into boiling water.....
then can eat d....wahahaa.....
emmm....nice....kekekeke.......
after finished having my lunch....hmmm...
can continue to zzzzZZzzZzz......kekekeke....
but lying on the bed for 1 an hour stil canot sleep....
haizzz.....ok la.....find some work to passtime...
ya.....sweepup my room !!! kekeke....
Then i started to clean up....walao...
so many trashiness stuffs.....throw throw throw !!!
kekeke...easy.....that's my style....
just throw away all those useless stuffs.....
while cleaning up my room...
oh！finally i found "u"....
my private collections for more quite some times.....


this crystal key chain....was my 2002 birthday present....
i think have around 6 years history already....


the locket....5 years history already....
the front side is actually my face....


and back side engraved the word "love u always".....


These 2 brooches were given by someone.....
witness the person's achievement in the career journey.....
however....i have no fate with the 3rd brooch..... :(
never mind....i will treasure the stuffs that i possessing now....
i have used up approximately 3 hours to cleaned up my room....
wahahaa....now the room is so clean.....feel so comfortable....
and now....is time for me to clean up myself....kekeke....

Date with Uncle @ Old Town Cafe

It has been quite some time i dint out with Uncle.....
if not mistaken our last date was during Deepavali....
Uncle followed me back to Kelantan.....
wahahahaa......the only reason is bcz uncle is very very busy.......
Even we stay under one roof.....but we dnt hv much time to stick together.....
1 week 7 days...uncle is working......from 9am + till 11+pm....
sometimes later than that....even till 1am......
and sometimes...uncle hv to go for outstation......
Johor....Penang....Kuantan.....Perak....Melaka.......
Walao......Uncle's business is expanding significantly.....wahahaa......
going forward to exploit the market at Kelantan.......
But now..... economy is not performing very well......haiz......
Fianlly yesterday....uncle took leave...stayed at home for whole day.....
Think he is really really tired......and stress.....
Around 10+pm ... suddently uncle asked me....
"Lets go...accompany me yum cha...."
Then i asked him..."U treat ?"
He nipped my face and answered...."Hanar Hanar...."
Wahahahaa.....
Yeah...Finally uncle date me again....kekekekekek......
We decided to walk to Old Town Cafe in front of my house.......
Never been there before since the Cafe was opened for business......
Emmm...not a bad Cafe.....the food taste not bad too.....
and the price is also acceptable......Kekeke....



Left : Xi Mut Nai Cha (丝袜奶茶) - Recommended
Right : Hazelnut White Cafe



Ice Fire Polo Bun ( 菠萝包)



Kaya and Butter Toast - Strongly Recommended



This is our latest photo.......nice ???? Kekekeke......

世上最心痛的距离..........

世上最心痛的距离，不是死别，而是生离！

世上最心痛的距离，不是生离，而是相隔与网络，你却说我爱你！

世上最心痛的距离，不是你说“我爱你”，而是我身不由己，从一开始就知道我们不能在一起！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我早知道不能和你在一起，而是明明知道不能在一起却让思念泛滥心底！

世上最心痛的距离，不是思念泛滥疯狂的想你，而是明明对你刻骨铭心的思念却要假装不在意！

世上最心痛的距离，不是假装对你不在意，而是即使来到你的身边也没有挣脱伦理道德放开自己！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我不能放纵自己，而是你问我是否留下时，我冷傲鄙夷的拒绝了你！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我拒绝了你，而是明明喜欢在你的怀里，却让你觉得我不愿意和你在一起！

世上最心痛的距离，不是让你觉得我不愿意和你在一起，而是离开你以后我痛苦万分，追悔不已！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我痛苦万分追悔不已，而是即使追悔痛惜，也没有回头说，我其实很爱你！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我不能说我爱你，而是当我想放下自尊表白时，你已冷漠的说，往事已矣!

世上最心痛的距离，不是你冷漠的说你已不在意，而是你放手了，我却永远活在遗憾里，不能忘记！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我活在遗憾里，不能忘记，而是你始终不懂我的悲哀，不明白我内心的孤寂！

世上最心痛的距离，不是你不懂我的悲哀，不明白我的孤寂，而是我即使痛彻心脾，却不能放声哭泣!

给天国的一封信。。。。

凯妍 ! 我的龟女 ！别来无恙？
好久没有这么叫你了 ！
也有一段好长的时间，没听到你叫我一声 mummy了！
在那儿过得好吗？开心吗？一切顺利吗？
不知道你那边有没有打排球呢？
如何度过你的日子呢？
我真的好想你 ！
算一算，你离开我们，就快要一年了。
但一切的一切，依然还很清晰地在我脑海里旋转，尽管岁月不留人。
我万万也没想过，你会这样离开我！
我们最后一次见面是什么时候啊？
应该是那天在12 college 练球的 时候吧！
那时我们最后一次一起打球！
认识你应该是我2nd year 的时候吧！
我们因为热爱排球而认识。
也因为排球我们有更深的友谊！
还记得我们在Penang 一起比赛的快乐日子吗？
我真的好怀念！那时的我们是多么的开心。
你的存在，真得让我们每个人都这么开心！
每当我说冷笑话时，你就是唯一的会哈哈大笑那个人！
比赛时，也就是你最担心，关心我的状况！
因为练球，我不小心弄伤了腰。
但是我还是坚持的继续打这个比赛。
不是完全因为最后一年参加了，我想拼，
其次是因为我真的很想和你们一起比这场赛！
虽然我知道这场球赛赢的可能性很低，
但我们是因为热爱排球才参加的。
还记得对UITM 那场，我的腰真的痛得不得了！
spike的每一粒球，越来越没杀伤力。
教练看不下去，只好叫了time out。
当我走去来时，你二话不说就帮我按摩，喷止痛药。
在Penang的那段日子，还好有你和静柔的支持，
有你们帮我按摩，扶我走路下楼梯，陪我颠，
好让我能无遗憾的完成那场赛！
那一幕幕的画面，依然还很清晰。
但，一场车祸，就把你我阴阳相隔。
过年除夕传来的坏消息，真的让我惊讶不已！
我无法相信所发生的一切！我多希望那个人不是你！
我祈求上天不要把你带走，你还有很长的路为完成。
但。。。初四那天，你终于撑不住了！
你就这样的离开我们！
那时，我真的好伤心，好心痛！ 为什么？你还这么年轻！
为什么上天就这么残忍的把你带走？
直到你出殡的那一天，我还无法接受！
但遗憾的是。。。我没办法送你最后一程。
原谅我 ！原谅我的诸多借口！
我真没勇气面对这一切！
我告诉他们买不到车票，所以无法出席你的葬礼。
但其实我在逃避！我不敢见你最后一次！
还好有位好友开解，慢慢的我接受这个事实.
但还是赶不上你的葬礼。
原谅我好吗？
终于那天，我鼓起了勇气，去看你。
他们把你安顿在一个很安宁的地方。
上了香给你，心中涌来一阵的感伤。
好多好多的美好回忆浮现在我的脑海里。
从没想到，我们会在这样的情况下见面。
凯妍，希望你在天国过着快快乐乐日子。
将来，我们一定会在那儿见面。
真的好想你。。。。



谢谢你亲手为我做的卡 ！我会好好的保管。。。



在 Penang 的快乐日子。。。。我会永远挂念。。。。



陪我疯狂的时光。。。



认识你，让我的生活多了好多的色彩。。。。谢谢你。。。



胜出UITM 那场球赛后。。。这张照片，记录着我们的喜悦。。。。



一起吃尽 Penang 的美味佳肴。。。

mY stUpiD bRotHeR ......

This morning after i reached office....
Haven take my seat properly... i received a call.....
huh? so early?...when i took out my phone from the pocket....
mum?seldom so early leh....
"Halo ma...hamitsu?"
"A mei ar.....yesterday night your Dai Lou accident leh !"
my heart suddently "dup".....I was so shocked.....
all those horror images appear in my mind.....
then i quickly cool down myself and asked my mum....
"Then Dai Lou leh? he got injured or not ? Where is he now ?
how come he will accident ? y he accident ? He drunk ar ?
he drive very fast meh? what time he back yesterday nite?"
I thrown so many questions to my mum....
My mum answer me slowly....
"No la....only the car cracked up....ur Dai Lou din't injured..."
Huh....luckily...said my heart.....
Then my feeling changed from worry to angry......
@#$%^&*....Hmm...should be drunk liao lo.....
told him how many times d....my mum also always maundering him d....
don't drive so fast....c ! now accident d....
Haiz...this Dai Lou ar......
Then my mum explained again....
"He got drank....but din't get drunk la....
He said the road was slippery....that's why when he made the u-turn...
the car suddently lost control....and bumped the lampstandard beside the road....."
Ooooo......padan muka lor......drive so fast......(so bad m i)
Wahahaha....no la....even my mouth said padan muka...
but actually i care my Dai Lou very much ler......kekeke.....
cz he care my mum so much...so i care of him too lo....wahahha.....
even though previouly he not allow me to "paktor" with the guy i loved...
but i know....my Dai Lou won't hurt me...all the things that he does was bcz he care me......
he scare i will be cheated by that guy.....
some more i was too young to paktor at that moment....
and he knew that my mum really hope that i can attain a degree cert....
that's why he blocked me.....kekkee.....
yeah !!! That's my Dai Lou....
he is not the kind of person that will express his feeling to me....
but deep in his heart...he really care and love this sister....kekeke....
nest week he is going to Shanghai travel......hope he will buy alots of things to me la....
don't sayang chuinn chiek only......
and pls dnt buy clothes for me.....your taste very bad.....
normal t-shirt still can accept...but make sure can fit k.....kekekeke.....
buy food also........

E E miss u very very very much leh chuinn chiek !!!!!!

My dearest chuinn chiek ar....E E miss you so much leh......
muakssss....muaksssss.....muakkkkksssss.......
long time din't hug chuinn chiek d.....
How r u? Po po said u eat a lots leh.....kekekeke.....
must faster grow up ya...
later E E buy a lot of toys for u k......
A Ku got bully chuinn chiek not ?
If yes.....chuinn chiek must fight back k....
Cause Chuinn Chiek is a HERO ma....
no need to scare of A ku.....E E support u.....
next week E E cannot go back to kb to accompany u leh....
E E can't get the ticket.....
your mummy asked E E buy flight o.....
E E cai mei you zhe yang ben....
E E want to save $$$ to buy nice clothes for you...
toys la...shoes la....bla bla bla.....
But....chuinn chiek's big day >>> 26/12/2008...
E E sure will go back k.....
even boss don't allow...E E also will go back....
but your A Tiu cannot go back leh......
A Tiu said he have to work.....never mind....
E E will get $$ from him to buy toys for u k....kekeke..... :P
Chuinn chiek going to be 1 year old d o.....wahahaha...
but still don't know how to call E E .....
kekekekeke......Don't know when can hear Chuinn Chiek call E E ?
miss you my dear........

离开我 ........................

我把你的电话 从手机里消除了
我把你的消息 从话题里减少了
我把你的味道 用香水喷掉了
我把你的照片 用全家福挡住了
你让我的懂事 变成一种幼稚
你让我的骄傲 觉得很无知
你让我的朋友 关心我的生活
你让我的软弱 陪伴你的自由

离开我　你会不会好一点
离开你　什么事都难一点
车来了　坐上你的明天
车走了　我还站在路边
离开我　你会不会好一点
离开你　什么事都难一点
风来了　云就会少一点
你走了　我住在雨里面

《 把悲伤留给自己 》

能不能让我陪着你走
既然你说留不住你
回去的路有些黑暗
担心让你一个人走
我想是因为我不够温柔
不能分担你的忧愁
如果这样说不出口
就把遗憾放在心中
把我的悲伤留给自己你的美丽让你带走
从此以后我再没有快乐起来的理由
把我的悲伤留给自己你的美丽让你带走
我想我可以忍住悲伤可不可以你也会想起我

是不是可以牵你的手啊
从来没有这样要求
怕你难过转身就走
那就这样吧 我会了解的
把我的悲伤留给自己你的美丽让你带走
从此以后我再没有快乐起来的理由
我想我可以忍住悲伤假装生命中没有你
从此以后我在这里日夜等待你的消息
能不能让我陪着你走
既然你说留不住你
无论你在天涯海角
时不时的偶尔会想起我
可不可以你也会想起我
可 不 可 以


今早起床就一直在反复听着这首歌。。。
它对我而言意义特别重大。。。
听着听着。。。心中开始有点郁闷。。。
两个礼拜了。。。还是等不到。。。
看来我还真的很执著。。。也很好胜。。。
今天终于忍不住了。。。只好主动出击。。。
就不知道会有反应吗？希望尽快会有好的回应啦。。。

BLACK THURSDAY

Oh god ! What a damn shit boring day....
Stil in the office at this smoment....
shouldn't online...but canot tahan d....
6 pages of unsuccessful listing waiting to be settled by today...#$%^&*....
normally 1 page only take about 40min to settle...
today...1 page 1 hour ++ neh !
Big Problem ! i cant concentrate with my works at all....damn shit !
My mind keep on thinking something which is impossible...
NMD ! is your fault! can we have another plan?
i really wish can meet up with you....
there's a lots that i want to share with you.....
if we dint meet up this time...duno when can meet up again...
next year feb...i dnt think u have time to meet me...u have Gala 2009 at submit rite?
contact me pls....waiting for your reply....

醉到底是怎样的感觉？

好想好想尝试醉的感觉。。。
到底会有多high呢? 有多爽? 有多刺激? 有多飘?
对我而言。。。这些感觉都很陌生。。。
因为我不曾喝酒。。。怎样醉呢？
直到那一夜。。。我奉献了我的“第一次”。。。
尝试把 一瓶含量0.5% 酒精的 kampai 往肚子里kulut kulut (i learned this word from ST)。。。
味道还不赖。。。蛮好喝的。。。没有很重的酒味。。。
可是一点飘飘然的感觉也没有。。。很清醒。。。
想醉却醉不了。。。可怜。。。
突然很羡慕那些能醉的人。。。
曾经有人对我说。。。他很喜欢醉。。。
那种飘飘然的感觉让他好怀恋。。。
因为醉了之后，他才有勇气面对深爱的那个她。。。
看来这个办法还不赖。。。
好吧。。。找一天自己灌醉自己吧 ! 嘿嘿 ！
让我一次醉个够 ！
嗯。。。谁来陪我好呢？？

"November Fool"

TRUST...a good topic to discuss here...purposely share this with my 2 beloved friends....ST and XY....kekekeke....

"TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships.
When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship."

What a meaningful and good sentence...rite?
The story behind happened past few days ago...if not mistaken is 20th Nov...
That day...due to " shortage of pocket $$$"...i decided to stay at office and OT jz to earn extra RM35....7.30pm sharp...i quickly packed up all my stuffs and drove my "little cavalry" along from office (KL - near Pavilion) back to my house (PJ Section 14). It takes me around 35min to reached home. Jz wan to open the gate...i received a call from XY....asked me whether wan to have dinner together...at 1st i was thingking to cook maggie to save $$$ cz salary hvn credited...kekeke....However, XY mentioned wanna share a big secret with me...whithout any doubt...I TRUST HER....so consent to have dinner together...but actually i m 8....curious what is the big secret...While waiting for her i was guessing what is the big secret as XY seldom share secret with me...izzit boss tendered??? if yes...then die lo....shit lo...how m i goin to continue with this job?? sure i will have to follow up all those SHIT things....oh no ! cant imagine !!! o XY encounter any prob???Finally...XY reached my house...once i went into the car...immediately asked her what is the big secret....she answered me...."i quarrel with ST"...i really TRUST her.....so asked her what they quarrel about...izzit work matter?Then, with kindhearted, i told her that actually ST's style is like that...sometime the way she talk might be not nice to listen...but actually she jz kidding....then XY laugh....but i stil TRUST her....when reached to the shop....i get down from the car...suddently i saw someone was in the car as well which i dint notice it before that....duno you know whose that?@#$%^&*....ST was in the car !!!! oh SHIT !!!! I was fooling by XY and ST !!!! Wahahaha....They fooling me !!!!! They folling me !!!! But i dint get angry....cz i knw they also kiding nia...i always fooled ppl...so expected ppl will fool me back...kekeke.....but...XY...i wont TRUST you anymore ! wahaha ! and i will be back to revenge !!!! Wahahaa....u duno my theory rite...let me tell u ....有仇不报非人也 !!!!

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Aloha !
Welcome to my guAt guAt's mEmoRies ciRcLe !
Kekeke...such a weird name...but match to the owner...
cz the owner also is a weird person. Wahahaha....
This is the first time i try to write something in my blog after created it for quite some long time. So...enjoy reading ya...even if u notice that the topics sharing are bored...but u have to read it till the end also...wahahaahaa...ENJOY !!!!!