It's all over

Yest I received a sms from someone….think is about 9pm something.....the content of the sms is that asking me to forget all that was happened before if I really dnt wish to think of it….the person said that if I keep thinking it will only hurt me…y not I use all my heart to love the 1 who deserve for my love????
When I read the msg,,, it was really hurt my feelings…I duno y suddenly the someone sent this kind of msg to me….may b is bcz someone saw the comment i posted in fb…..i was hoping that someone will console me instead of sending this msg…I need the care to move on in my life….to make sure that I m not lost….but it totally shows that someone is no longer have the feelings… I m disturbing their happy life…..someone have already put down the past and now having the future….
Yes….i got ur msg….and I knw what should I do….i m not going to disturb u anymore….wishing u a very happy life….just let me alone here…I will still survive without you….just wan to let u knw that it is not easy to forgot someone that is important….may b is not easy..but is impossible….but I will keep it in my heart forever….when I was in need…I can settle my own….dnt worry…………..may b u dnt even worry about me de………………………………..

proposal???? not me ~~~

Was writing this blog as at 11.18am….

Today my fren told me that he is going to propose to his gf….it was great when u heard a guy is going to propose to his beloved…feel happy for him….finally decided to propose….we were discussing about the proposal’s plan…the ring….when to propose….bla bla bla….then I start to imaging my proposal…wahahaha….when uncle will propose??? How’s he going to propose??how big is the diamond?? What would be my response??? Wahahhaa…imaging imaging imaging….hehehe…

Then suddenly I questioned my fren…did his ex knw he is going to propose to current gf?? What would be her feelings??? Even though they are only friend now…but I believe the girl might have some sad feelings….then my fren throw the question back to me…what would be my feeling if ur ex getting marry??? The first thing appear in my mind is that for sure I will feel sad….but what would be the degree of the sadness??? i duno….may b light…may b moderate or even severe??????? If really severe, then how m I going to stay survive??? When the time comes…then I will knw………..

But I really hope that it will not so soon…..

FAN JIAN

It has been a long time I did not update my blog…not to say very busy…just feel abit lazy to express out my feelings when the one u wish can care of you does not response or take any action….but choose to escape from you !!!!
Was writing this blog at 11.13am…during office hours….
Today is the 2nd week of 2nd day I reporting to my new employer….was decided to let this new employer to ‘buy’ me over from old company….just feel like I m valuable to this society…wahahha….
Was too free in the office….nth that we can do except keep on reading the operation manuals….system ID not up…pc yet to configure with necessary system…training yet to be started…this whole November would be like having honey moon…everyday report to office at 8.30am and do nth….then counting down to go bec at 5.30pm….
Sometimes is good to have this kind of life cz u need not to process cases…headache with complicated issues… rushing to hit daily target….but u still get the salary on time…sound good rite??? However, when u starting to get bored…then it become a problem where u keep on looking something to do….this called FAN JIAN….
When u r free…u will keep on thinking something non-sense….something which u should have let go and forget about it….something that does not worth for your attention…something that dnt even care of you…something that lie to you…something that does not keep their promise…something that look for you when only they are free but leave you behind when they have some other people to accompany…see…I can list down alots…but….y??? u stil keep the hope that something will come back to you ??? y u still awaiting for something to look for you even though u knw they wnt stop by permanently in you life??? There are only 1 word can describe it…you are FAN JIAN lor….
I have actually took the effort to ignore something…I deleted all that related to that…I’ve tried to be harder to just let it go and forget about it….but y something come back to you again and you are not enuf hard to ignore for the 2nd times??? You’ve choose to accept something that going to hurt you again…now you getting hurt when u saw something that you are not suppose to see!!! u’re hurt when u saw that it actually so perfect and stable….u are hopeless de…even though you expected…but it comes to reality that you need to accept it…it seem to be so tough….and it will takes you a long time to let it go…
I was in the middle of planning to ignore and delete again….but ….i m scare!!! I scare when I really delete it…it’s gonna be the real end which I dnt wan it happen so soon….i knw it doesn’t belong to me…I knw it wnt come bac to me again….i knw I should have accept the arrangement by lord…but…….it stil hard for me to do so………I m stil………but………..

鬼迷心窍

曾经真的以为人生就这样了
平静的心拒绝再有浪潮
斩了千次的情丝却断不了
百转千折它将我围绕
有人问我你究竟是那里好
这麽多年我还忘不了
春风再美也比不上你的笑
没见过你的人不会明了
是鬼迷了心窍也好
是前世的因缘也好
然而这一切已不再重要
如果你能够重回我怀抱
是命运的安排也好
是你存心的捉弄也好
然而这一切也不再重要
我愿意随你到天涯海角
虽然岁月总是匆匆的催人老
虽然情爱总是让人烦恼
虽然未来如何不能知道
现在说再见会不会太早

最好的结局

传闻你和他的相遇
听说是多么美丽
而我的存在是多余

听得太多也累了
我们之间也完了
别再继续纠缠不清

我不能放弃自己去讨好你
那不是我自己
如果你爱她就别再错下去

我不像你想像中的那么脆弱
分手已成了定局
在他发现之前忘了你

就为了我的名誉
就为了你的秘密
就请别让她哭泣

我不能放弃自己去讨好你
那不是我自己
如果你爱她就别再错下去

我不像你想像中的那么脆弱
分手是我的决定
在他发现之前忘了你
分离已是最好的结局

原来我最爱的人是你不是他

当你离开的时候
没有任何的理由
心里有一点痛
如果时间能回头
多想抓住你的手
不要让你走
突然看见我和你的照片
仿佛一切回到我的身边
原来我最爱的人是你不是他
心里的无奈多希望能够对你说明白
原来我最爱的人是你不是他
对你的思念永远都看不见
到底爱要怎么说
突然看见我和你的照片
仿佛一切回到我的身边
原来我最爱的人是你不是他
心里的无奈多希望能够对你说明白
原来我最爱的人是你不是他
对你的思念永远都看不见
到底爱要怎么说
我一直以为
时间能够把一切都带走
不曾想过要回头
如果我们的爱还没到尽头
只想靠近你我不想放你走
原来我最爱的人是你不是他
心里的无奈多希望能够对你说明白
最爱的是你不是他
对你的思念永远都看不见
到底爱要怎么说
是你不是他

差一点

差一点 你就是我的女人
差一些 手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分
遇上了错的人
渐渐的吻在她无心的嘴唇
感觉像一个旅程 走完了就分
错过了对的人
决定就只在那一秒那一分
爱情的岔口
你是我等不到的路人
差一点 你就是我的女人
差一些 就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点 你就是我的女人
差一些 手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分
错过了对的人
决定就只在那一秒那一分
如果没缘分
我也会固执的为你一人
差一点 你就是我的女人
差一些 就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点 你就是我的女人
差一些 手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分　

爱在记忆中找你

我对你这一生哪个可比
我与你差一些永远一起
邂逅时间场地 似连场好戏
要自何页说起
爱太重深呼吸欠缺空气
爱太美轻轻的却载不起
爱情来到时候 似明媚天气
它走了突然骤变雪落雨飞

如果可以恨你全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非想放下你还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎么伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离

你太远该怎么说对不起
你太近一转身却已高飞
快乐也许太短似场流星雨
一眨眼就如幻觉怕又记起

我情愿我狠心憎你
我还在记忆中找你

日有所思 夜有所梦

Yesterday i dream of u again !!!!
cant believe it right? hahaha.....
but i m so happy to meet u in my dream.....
such a great experience i have u in my dream.....
in reality it is impossible for us to meet again....
but at least u can come to my dream.....
i miss you so much......
hope that u can feel it ya.....
dnt worry....i will be happy here.....
and wish you happy too over there....

Dream of u last night.....

It have been such a long time i did not dream of u.....
finally last night u came into my dream....
in the dream....you was motivating your downlines.....
u saw me standing outside the door.....but you have decided to ignore my apprearence.....
it was hurt......
do you know i've been missing you so much all the while.....
how are you recently?
is everything fine there?
jz wan to let u know that deep inside my heart u are still there....
i will never ever forget you...
the days we had together.....the cheears we enjoyed together....
the laughter and sadness we shared together....
miss the days i have you beside me.....
miss your scent....miss your warmest.....
miss your laughter...miss your says....
miss your "KAH NEH".....miss the scar on your hand....
miss the way you look at me....your eyes' expression.....
and miss all about you.......
but you would never know...........

勇气

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里 你的真心
如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急 更害怕错过你
爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里 你的真心

放手 ~~~~~

收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑后 能全然退后 你开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到后 或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然后 就放手

放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够

遥远是宇宙 静静在背后 去看守就够

这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手

放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够

放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麼都有
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有

kenangan yang terindah

aku yang lemah tanpamu
aku yang rentan kerana
cinta yang telah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku
selama mata terbuka
sampai jantung tak berdetak
selama itu pun
aku mampu untuk mengenangmu
darimu... kutemukan hidupku
bagiku... kau lah cinta sejati
bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan kujadikan kau
kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
yang telah terukir abadi
sebagai kenangan yang terindah

I know you are here.......

Yesterday was 21st Feb....
i know you will be here....nearby....
think yesterday morning you start your journey....
think yesterday by evening you already arrived here.....
think after you arrived...should be very tired and took rest in the room....
think yesterday you attended the occasion...
think yesterday u might awarded or promoted to the higher level..
think u might be very happy can move further....
think after that u have your celebration....
think yesterday u might not have time to remember my existence.....
and i.....waiting for you.......waiting to receive a message from you....
but none......the whole night....it was so silent.....and keep silent.....................

Today is 22nd Feb....
again...i know u still here....not far from me....
think this morning u woke up not very early...as last night u are tired.....
think after woke up u might think of me...or.......might not too.....
think now you tidying up prepare to go back....
think you are rushing to go back....
think you still busy and wont look for me....
think you have surrender and give up.....
think you might start the journey back to where you are....
think it's going to rain soon.....careful ya.....
think tonight by 8 you should reach.....
and i.....will continue my life as usual.....no more expectant......
treasure what i possess of...................................................

我的记忆不是我的

傷心的總會任性 灰心的總會用氣力
將最好的過去 將最多的細碎
鎖到屬於你的眼睛

失戀的不夠耐性 失戀的不信是注定
於最黑的世界 於最光的剎那
感到屬於你的氣息

即使很多一起過的 想起的通通你的
為著是浪漫的愛情
通通都可再見 但承諾可再聽
什麼可不變色 Oh baby

當晚與你記住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我 我承認 回憶也許你的
當晚與你記住流水聲
今晚站在大地自己傾聽
難道送別你 回頭總是虔誠 誰能怪我 總是太感性

失戀的都有惰性 失戀的都記住約定
當理想的世界 當理想的剎那 因愛 無分你的我的

即使很多一起過的 想起的通通你的
為著是浪漫的愛情
通通都可再見 但承諾可再聽
什麼可不變色 Oh baby

當晚與你記住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我 我承認
回憶也許你的 當晚與你記住流水聲
今晚站在大地自己傾聽
難道送別你 回頭總是虔誠 誰能怪我 總是太感性

什麼可不變色 Oh baby
當晚與你記住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我 我承認
回憶也許你的 當晚與你記住流水聲
今晚站在大地自己傾聽
難道送別你 回頭總是虔誠 誰能怪我 總是太感性

即使很多一起過的 想起的通通你的
為著是浪漫的愛情
通通都可再見 但承諾可再聽
什麼可不變色 Oh baby

當晚與你記住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我 我承認
今晚站在大地自己傾聽
難道送別你 回頭總是虔誠 誰能怪我 總是太感性

Happy Happy Day ~~~

Today i m so happy !!!!!
wahahahahahaaha.......
i got 2 weeks cny's leave......
wahahahahahahaha.........
will be on levae starting from 21st jan til 1st Feb......
SYIOK !!!!!!!!!
wahahahahaahahaha..
damn happy........
20th will be my last day.....
after work i will take bus back to my lovely hometown >>> KB....
waahahahahahahahhaa........
i m so so so so so happy !!!!!!!
such a long cny's leave.......
kekekekekekekeke.......
still got 5 days to go.....
and this weekend...
will be my last sprint to prepare for cny.....
leave shoes and handbag.....yeah !!!!!!
no more clothes ok !!!!!!!
Kahkahkahakahakahakah.........

穷啊！！！！

最近好穷啊！
生活好苦啊！
为什么钱总是不够用？
为什么？？？ 为什么？？？
今天好开心。
因为收到公司的公告，确定初三至初五是force leave。而且三十和三十一号不是每个员工都必须回公司support全新的system - PruBase。
哇哈哈哈哈 ！太好了 ！实在太好了 ！
虽然我不能确定自己不是其中一个，但我应该不需要回来吧 ?!
唐人只有我和Wing Hong 徒弟，所以应该没什么问题 ！
嘿嘿 ！除非老板..........zzzzzZzzZZzzZzzzzzZZzzzZZzz......
不理了，死都拜一才开工 ！票都买了 ！
就因为这个好消息，我就放纵自己。
放工后就独自儿跑到Time Square 疯狂的shopping。
本来不打算再买了。因为上个月买了很多。
怎知？？？ Oh SHIT 咯 ！！！
刚才短短的一个小时在Time Square 扫了三件衣一件短裙 ！
恐怖死人啦 ！就这样签个名，两百块又不见了 ！
该死的手痒、脚痒、皮痒、心痒、屁股痒、眼睛痒.....
总而言之，全身痒就都了 ！
下个月单一来就死了！
死啦 死啦 死啦 ！！！
就算出再多的薪水也不够用啊 ！！！
穷啊 ！！！！！！

累 !

最近觉得好累好累 ！
总是提不起劲儿来。
不管是肉体上或是心灵上都一样累！
人慢慢长大的同时，也累积了越来越多的烦脑！
抬头望着天空时，觉得一片灰暗。
低头思念他时，觉得很讽刺。
我是怎么了？
我究竟是怎么一回事？
我也不知道。
只知道，我好累，累得不像话。
好想回家！回到那温暖的家。
还有11天.........................

从开始到现在 ~~~

你真的忘得了你的初恋情人吗
假如有一天
你遇到了跟他长得一模一样的人
他真的就是他吗
还有可能吗
这是命运的宽容
还是另一次不怀好意的玩笑

如果这最后的结局
为何我还忘不了你
时间改变了
我们告别了单纯
如果重逢也无法继续
失去才算是永恒
惩罚我的认真
是我太过天真
难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在
也同样落的不可能
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认
你是我不该爱的人
如果再见是为了再分
失去才算是永恒
一次新的记忆为何还要再生

拿什么作证
从未想过爱一个人
需要那么残忍才证明爱的深
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认

新年快乐 ！

今天是2009年的第一天了！
可是怎么没有什么特别的感觉呢？
新的一年，就该有新的开始。
回顾2008。。。
有好多好多的快乐与不快乐。
但在我的人生里，总觉得不快乐永远比快乐多。
可能这就是人的本性。
快乐的总会被不快乐的埋没。
搞得自己成天闷闷不乐 ！
未来，应该好好学习如何放手、放开、放下、放走。
总是执著着不属于自己的会好过吗？有用吗？值得吗？
何不珍惜、爱惜自己所拥有的呢？
话说虽易，但有多少人真的能做到呢？
我就确确实实是个失败者 ！
哈哈 ！真的好讽刺 ！
不过，在未来的日子里，我会好好的努力的 ！
总有一天，我一定能做到 ！
这一年里，我经历了不少事故。
我的好友 - 凯妍就在大年初四离开人世。
年纪轻轻的她，拥有着大好前途，身边还有个爱她的男友。真的好可惜了！
进入九月份，年迈的公公也逃不过死门关。
离开时已是四代大父，子孙满堂 。
随着十月尾，病了多年的阿姨再也撑不住，呼下了最后一口气。
她的离世，或许也不是件完全坏的事。至少她能脱离病魔的折磨。
面对亲人和好友的离世，不得不叫我叹息人生真的是那么的短暂。
2008， 也有快乐的。
我的侄儿 - 俊杰一岁啦！
看着他一天一天的长大，真的是件很快乐的事。
他带来了不少欢乐给我们。
他的一举一动，不管是笑的还是哭的，都逗得我们好开心。
看着姐姐带大他，真的好辛苦。
从他一出世到现在，没有一刻能停下来。
这让我深深地感到母爱的伟大。
也让我明白到以前妈妈是多么辛苦的把我们养大成人。
真的要好好报答妈妈。没有妈妈，就没有今天的我。
快乐的事当然少不了他啦。
四年的大学生涯，他终于毕业啦！
虽然没有拿到1st class，但PNGK也有过3。
理科有过3真的很不错啦！
可是就比我差了一点点。哈哈！
虽然我是文科生，但我还是要比。气气他也好! 哈哈 ！
出来赚钱半年了。成绩也算不错。
若没阻碍，六月前应该会有免费车坐啦！哈哈!
就不知道年底会有免费屋子住吗？
不过他肯定也会和我收租的啦！哈哈！
我呢我呢?就什么也没有。
出来社会一年多了，就什么也没有。
手头上的资金也不多。全交管给妈妈了。
有时得熬快熟面过日子。真的可怜。
不过如无意外，应该或许也会出辆车子吧。
因为我的老铁马看似快要殉职了。
不过还是得看看情况如何再说。
一旦买了车，就再也回不过头了。
真的要好好打好算盘。
来到2009，快25岁了！好可怕哦。
就这样就25岁了。好像30就快来临了。我不要那么快啊！
我可以永远都25 吗？可以吗？我不要变老。哈哈！
好啦，新的一年新希望。

祝：

爸爸 ：健健康康。长命百岁。少点吸烟。踏踏实实的做人。
妈妈 ：健健康康。长命百岁。快快乐乐。不要再受苦。
干妈 ：健健康康。长命百岁。老公生意兴隆。
姐姐 & 姐夫 ：健健康康。长命百岁。姐姐工作顺利。快点生第二个。姐夫生意兴隆。
大哥：健健康康。长命百岁。工作顺利。快点找个大嫂。少点喝酒。
二哥：健健康康。长命百岁。少点吸烟。踏踏实实的做工。好好做人。
侄儿 ：健健康康。开开心心。快高长大。做个有用的人。
uncle : 健健康康。长命百岁。工作顺利。越赚越多钱。越来越爱我。
我 ：当然也要健健康康。长命百岁。工作顺利。青春美丽。梦想成真。心想事成。

想你..........

又是一个寒冷的黑夜，我独自座在窗台前，静静地想你，想知道你在做什么，想知道你有没有想我，想知道你有没有凝视远方的时候，你的眼前是否划过我的身影，想知道每晚当你走进甜美的梦乡，是否知道我在梦中等你。

真的很想你，很喜欢静静地座在这里想你，我不知道这样静静地想一个人，对方是否真切地感受到，但我真的愿意这样静静地为你守候，真的很想在心底为你泡上一杯浓浓的咖啡，驱散你脸上的倦容。

真的很想你，想你想得心痛，我以为没有尝试过思念的人，不会理解这种痛，无法体会这种忧，思念之苦，思念之痛，尽管我知道这样静静地想你，漆黑的夜无法将我的心思传得很远，但我相信，无论多远，你一定能够听见，而且会常常感到一种莫明的心动。

真的很想你，如果可以，我愿化作空中的一片白云，飞过千山万水，停留在你的那片天空，真实地感受你的气息，默默地支撑你的一片天空，我不会打扰你的清静，只想用我真诚的心，在遥远的角落静静地想你。

我真的很喜欢这样想你，也许我的思念是一种美丽，也许我的思念是一种等待，等待一个遥不可及的梦，我知道，我不能渴求，我只希望我能一直这样静静地想你。

我不能不想你，思念不知道多少次挣破忧郁的情网，因为我相信，真爱永不会陈旧，思念永不会搁浅，遥远的距离，我唯一能做的，就是不停地想你。

想写的很多，但这种思念真的无法准确的用文字表达，心中莫明的怅然再度升起，真的很想说一句，你可知道，我正思念思念我最心爱的你……

思念是无止境的！

Dinner with Uncle at Jogoya Starhill

Last Monday >>> 15/12/2008...
was a memorable day for me and uncle.....
we had our dinner at Jogoya....
Jogoya ---> is a buffet style Japanese food Restaurant which located in Starhill Hotel at Bukit Bintang.....
It was our first time tried out Japanese food....
reason being i dont like to take Japanese food at all....
I am Kelantanese...prefer to have Thai's style food instead....
However, after persuaded by uncle.....
he said he gonna treat me...so ??? i just said YES lo....
kekekee....
Each of us ride our own motorcycle to the destination....
Before reach Starhill....a small incident happened to me...
a car with the high speed was nearly impinge on my motorcycle when i try to make a u-turn....
I remembered....Uncle shouted at me loudly....."CAR !!!!!!"
when i turned to see the car....a brake's sound...."eeeeeeeeee...."
At that moment....my mind totally blank......
i just looked at the car.....getting near and near.....
it was within an inch of one's life....
Luckily....the driver managed to stop the car.....
Then only i wake up.....and drive my little to a side.....
fuihhhhh~~~~ safe.....damn dangerous.....
i really thought that i cant escape at that moment and waiting the car to bang me....
Really really so lucky.....then uncle started to keep on scolding me.....
i know he was in shocked.....so i just stay silent and smile at him when he scolding me.....
finally he canot tahan....."Still laughing ?! u know how dangerous it was ?!"
Then i just answered him...."Kekekeke.....let's go lo......"
After we reached Starhill.....uncle still talked the hind leg off a donkey.....
Cannot tahan...but...my heart feel kinda sweet.....
he really scare of losing me....wahahaha.....
We still proceed with our plan to have the dinner.....
Arrived Jogoya Restaurant doorway.....
ciak lat lo....so many people....this time dunno have to queue how long d....
we fast fast went to queue up....within 5 min came to our turn...
so fast...so lucky ar today.....kekekeke....
Then we start makan makan liao lo...
went into the restaurant....the environment is not bad....
But....we have no time to enjoy the environment....
cz the buffet time is limit to hours only....
We fast fast take all the food....wah...so many food....
then i instructed Uncle..."U take the food over there...i in-charge the food here...ok !!!"
I straight away run off before uncle can give me any response....wahaha...
cz it was so excited to see so many food.....
then i just take and take and take...then put on our table...
then went to take again....so happy to take so many food....
Dunno how many rounds....until the table cannot fit another plate...
then only i stopped and started to eat......
keep on eating and eating and eating.....
until clear up all the food the table....then we went to take again.....
wahahaaa.....After 3rd round....wah....damn full.....then only realize that....
oh no...forgot to take a picture.....then we proceed to take the sweeties.....so many choices....
i only manage to took the photo for the sweeties and some of the food.....
the sweeties are not bad.....especially the ice-cream...taste nice....
the whole night....we just eat and eat and eat non-stop.....
Finally around 9pm...it was the last call from the reception...
we end our makan makan that night.....really really full.....kekeke....


Some of the sweeties.....


Coconut drink.....very nice......


Me and Uncle !!!! satisfied after took so many food......kekeke.....

A boring day.....

today is 14/12/2008...now the clock is showing 17:27....
what a damn boring day today.....
woke up in the morning around 10.30pm....
after that....keep on watching movie.....
do nothing at home.....lying on the bed....
was thinking bout Chinese new year....
wahahaa....seems like i still a little bit puerility....
never mind...as long as i m happy.....kekeke....
come to 1pm.....my stomach started to making noisy.....
quickly wake up and went to the kitchen...
luckily yesterday i bought some chicken and vegetable at Jusco....
Hmmm....lets cook soup....
so that tonite uncle can have it when back from work.....
within 1 an hour...finally my soup is ready....
put the mee sua into boiling water.....
then can eat d....wahahaa.....
emmm....nice....kekekeke.......
after finished having my lunch....hmmm...
can continue to zzzzZZzzZzz......kekekeke....
but lying on the bed for 1 an hour stil canot sleep....
haizzz.....ok la.....find some work to passtime...
ya.....sweepup my room !!! kekeke....
Then i started to clean up....walao...
so many trashiness stuffs.....throw throw throw !!!
kekeke...easy.....that's my style....
just throw away all those useless stuffs.....
while cleaning up my room...
oh！finally i found "u"....
my private collections for more quite some times.....


this crystal key chain....was my 2002 birthday present....
i think have around 6 years history already....


the locket....5 years history already....
the front side is actually my face....


and back side engraved the word "love u always".....


These 2 brooches were given by someone.....
witness the person's achievement in the career journey.....
however....i have no fate with the 3rd brooch..... :(
never mind....i will treasure the stuffs that i possessing now....
i have used up approximately 3 hours to cleaned up my room....
wahahaa....now the room is so clean.....feel so comfortable....
and now....is time for me to clean up myself....kekeke....

Date with Uncle @ Old Town Cafe

It has been quite some time i dint out with Uncle.....
if not mistaken our last date was during Deepavali....
Uncle followed me back to Kelantan.....
wahahahaa......the only reason is bcz uncle is very very busy.......
Even we stay under one roof.....but we dnt hv much time to stick together.....
1 week 7 days...uncle is working......from 9am + till 11+pm....
sometimes later than that....even till 1am......
and sometimes...uncle hv to go for outstation......
Johor....Penang....Kuantan.....Perak....Melaka.......
Walao......Uncle's business is expanding significantly.....wahahaa......
going forward to exploit the market at Kelantan.......
But now..... economy is not performing very well......haiz......
Fianlly yesterday....uncle took leave...stayed at home for whole day.....
Think he is really really tired......and stress.....
Around 10+pm ... suddently uncle asked me....
"Lets go...accompany me yum cha...."
Then i asked him..."U treat ?"
He nipped my face and answered...."Hanar Hanar...."
Wahahahaa.....
Yeah...Finally uncle date me again....kekekekekek......
We decided to walk to Old Town Cafe in front of my house.......
Never been there before since the Cafe was opened for business......
Emmm...not a bad Cafe.....the food taste not bad too.....
and the price is also acceptable......Kekeke....



Left : Xi Mut Nai Cha (丝袜奶茶) - Recommended
Right : Hazelnut White Cafe



Ice Fire Polo Bun ( 菠萝包)



Kaya and Butter Toast - Strongly Recommended



This is our latest photo.......nice ???? Kekekeke......

世上最心痛的距离..........

世上最心痛的距离，不是死别，而是生离！

世上最心痛的距离，不是生离，而是相隔与网络，你却说我爱你！

世上最心痛的距离，不是你说“我爱你”，而是我身不由己，从一开始就知道我们不能在一起！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我早知道不能和你在一起，而是明明知道不能在一起却让思念泛滥心底！

世上最心痛的距离，不是思念泛滥疯狂的想你，而是明明对你刻骨铭心的思念却要假装不在意！

世上最心痛的距离，不是假装对你不在意，而是即使来到你的身边也没有挣脱伦理道德放开自己！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我不能放纵自己，而是你问我是否留下时，我冷傲鄙夷的拒绝了你！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我拒绝了你，而是明明喜欢在你的怀里，却让你觉得我不愿意和你在一起！

世上最心痛的距离，不是让你觉得我不愿意和你在一起，而是离开你以后我痛苦万分，追悔不已！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我痛苦万分追悔不已，而是即使追悔痛惜，也没有回头说，我其实很爱你！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我不能说我爱你，而是当我想放下自尊表白时，你已冷漠的说，往事已矣!

世上最心痛的距离，不是你冷漠的说你已不在意，而是你放手了，我却永远活在遗憾里，不能忘记！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我活在遗憾里，不能忘记，而是你始终不懂我的悲哀，不明白我内心的孤寂！

世上最心痛的距离，不是你不懂我的悲哀，不明白我的孤寂，而是我即使痛彻心脾，却不能放声哭泣!

给天国的一封信。。。。

凯妍 ! 我的龟女 ！别来无恙？
好久没有这么叫你了 ！
也有一段好长的时间，没听到你叫我一声 mummy了！
在那儿过得好吗？开心吗？一切顺利吗？
不知道你那边有没有打排球呢？
如何度过你的日子呢？
我真的好想你 ！
算一算，你离开我们，就快要一年了。
但一切的一切，依然还很清晰地在我脑海里旋转，尽管岁月不留人。
我万万也没想过，你会这样离开我！
我们最后一次见面是什么时候啊？
应该是那天在12 college 练球的 时候吧！
那时我们最后一次一起打球！
认识你应该是我2nd year 的时候吧！
我们因为热爱排球而认识。
也因为排球我们有更深的友谊！
还记得我们在Penang 一起比赛的快乐日子吗？
我真的好怀念！那时的我们是多么的开心。
你的存在，真得让我们每个人都这么开心！
每当我说冷笑话时，你就是唯一的会哈哈大笑那个人！
比赛时，也就是你最担心，关心我的状况！
因为练球，我不小心弄伤了腰。
但是我还是坚持的继续打这个比赛。
不是完全因为最后一年参加了，我想拼，
其次是因为我真的很想和你们一起比这场赛！
虽然我知道这场球赛赢的可能性很低，
但我们是因为热爱排球才参加的。
还记得对UITM 那场，我的腰真的痛得不得了！
spike的每一粒球，越来越没杀伤力。
教练看不下去，只好叫了time out。
当我走去来时，你二话不说就帮我按摩，喷止痛药。
在Penang的那段日子，还好有你和静柔的支持，
有你们帮我按摩，扶我走路下楼梯，陪我颠，
好让我能无遗憾的完成那场赛！
那一幕幕的画面，依然还很清晰。
但，一场车祸，就把你我阴阳相隔。
过年除夕传来的坏消息，真的让我惊讶不已！
我无法相信所发生的一切！我多希望那个人不是你！
我祈求上天不要把你带走，你还有很长的路为完成。
但。。。初四那天，你终于撑不住了！
你就这样的离开我们！
那时，我真的好伤心，好心痛！ 为什么？你还这么年轻！
为什么上天就这么残忍的把你带走？
直到你出殡的那一天，我还无法接受！
但遗憾的是。。。我没办法送你最后一程。
原谅我 ！原谅我的诸多借口！
我真没勇气面对这一切！
我告诉他们买不到车票，所以无法出席你的葬礼。
但其实我在逃避！我不敢见你最后一次！
还好有位好友开解，慢慢的我接受这个事实.
但还是赶不上你的葬礼。
原谅我好吗？
终于那天，我鼓起了勇气，去看你。
他们把你安顿在一个很安宁的地方。
上了香给你，心中涌来一阵的感伤。
好多好多的美好回忆浮现在我的脑海里。
从没想到，我们会在这样的情况下见面。
凯妍，希望你在天国过着快快乐乐日子。
将来，我们一定会在那儿见面。
真的好想你。。。。



谢谢你亲手为我做的卡 ！我会好好的保管。。。



在 Penang 的快乐日子。。。。我会永远挂念。。。。



陪我疯狂的时光。。。



认识你，让我的生活多了好多的色彩。。。。谢谢你。。。



胜出UITM 那场球赛后。。。这张照片，记录着我们的喜悦。。。。



一起吃尽 Penang 的美味佳肴。。。

mY stUpiD bRotHeR ......

This morning after i reached office....
Haven take my seat properly... i received a call.....
huh? so early?...when i took out my phone from the pocket....
mum?seldom so early leh....
"Halo ma...hamitsu?"
"A mei ar.....yesterday night your Dai Lou accident leh !"
my heart suddently "dup".....I was so shocked.....
all those horror images appear in my mind.....
then i quickly cool down myself and asked my mum....
"Then Dai Lou leh? he got injured or not ? Where is he now ?
how come he will accident ? y he accident ? He drunk ar ?
he drive very fast meh? what time he back yesterday nite?"
I thrown so many questions to my mum....
My mum answer me slowly....
"No la....only the car cracked up....ur Dai Lou din't injured..."
Huh....luckily...said my heart.....
Then my feeling changed from worry to angry......
@#$%^&*....Hmm...should be drunk liao lo.....
told him how many times d....my mum also always maundering him d....
don't drive so fast....c ! now accident d....
Haiz...this Dai Lou ar......
Then my mum explained again....
"He got drank....but din't get drunk la....
He said the road was slippery....that's why when he made the u-turn...
the car suddently lost control....and bumped the lampstandard beside the road....."
Ooooo......padan muka lor......drive so fast......(so bad m i)
Wahahaha....no la....even my mouth said padan muka...
but actually i care my Dai Lou very much ler......kekeke.....
cz he care my mum so much...so i care of him too lo....wahahha.....
even though previouly he not allow me to "paktor" with the guy i loved...
but i know....my Dai Lou won't hurt me...all the things that he does was bcz he care me......
he scare i will be cheated by that guy.....
some more i was too young to paktor at that moment....
and he knew that my mum really hope that i can attain a degree cert....
that's why he blocked me.....kekkee.....
yeah !!! That's my Dai Lou....
he is not the kind of person that will express his feeling to me....
but deep in his heart...he really care and love this sister....kekeke....
nest week he is going to Shanghai travel......hope he will buy alots of things to me la....
don't sayang chuinn chiek only......
and pls dnt buy clothes for me.....your taste very bad.....
normal t-shirt still can accept...but make sure can fit k.....kekekeke.....
buy food also........

E E miss u very very very much leh chuinn chiek !!!!!!

My dearest chuinn chiek ar....E E miss you so much leh......
muakssss....muaksssss.....muakkkkksssss.......
long time din't hug chuinn chiek d.....
How r u? Po po said u eat a lots leh.....kekekeke.....
must faster grow up ya...
later E E buy a lot of toys for u k......
A Ku got bully chuinn chiek not ?
If yes.....chuinn chiek must fight back k....
Cause Chuinn Chiek is a HERO ma....
no need to scare of A ku.....E E support u.....
next week E E cannot go back to kb to accompany u leh....
E E can't get the ticket.....
your mummy asked E E buy flight o.....
E E cai mei you zhe yang ben....
E E want to save $$$ to buy nice clothes for you...
toys la...shoes la....bla bla bla.....
But....chuinn chiek's big day >>> 26/12/2008...
E E sure will go back k.....
even boss don't allow...E E also will go back....
but your A Tiu cannot go back leh......
A Tiu said he have to work.....never mind....
E E will get $$ from him to buy toys for u k....kekeke..... :P
Chuinn chiek going to be 1 year old d o.....wahahaha...
but still don't know how to call E E .....
kekekekeke......Don't know when can hear Chuinn Chiek call E E ?
miss you my dear........

离开我 ........................

我把你的电话 从手机里消除了
我把你的消息 从话题里减少了
我把你的味道 用香水喷掉了
我把你的照片 用全家福挡住了
你让我的懂事 变成一种幼稚
你让我的骄傲 觉得很无知
你让我的朋友 关心我的生活
你让我的软弱 陪伴你的自由

离开我　你会不会好一点
离开你　什么事都难一点
车来了　坐上你的明天
车走了　我还站在路边
离开我　你会不会好一点
离开你　什么事都难一点
风来了　云就会少一点
你走了　我住在雨里面

《 把悲伤留给自己 》

能不能让我陪着你走
既然你说留不住你
回去的路有些黑暗
担心让你一个人走
我想是因为我不够温柔
不能分担你的忧愁
如果这样说不出口
就把遗憾放在心中
把我的悲伤留给自己你的美丽让你带走
从此以后我再没有快乐起来的理由
把我的悲伤留给自己你的美丽让你带走
我想我可以忍住悲伤可不可以你也会想起我

是不是可以牵你的手啊
从来没有这样要求
怕你难过转身就走
那就这样吧 我会了解的
把我的悲伤留给自己你的美丽让你带走
从此以后我再没有快乐起来的理由
我想我可以忍住悲伤假装生命中没有你
从此以后我在这里日夜等待你的消息
能不能让我陪着你走
既然你说留不住你
无论你在天涯海角
时不时的偶尔会想起我
可不可以你也会想起我
可 不 可 以


今早起床就一直在反复听着这首歌。。。
它对我而言意义特别重大。。。
听着听着。。。心中开始有点郁闷。。。
两个礼拜了。。。还是等不到。。。
看来我还真的很执著。。。也很好胜。。。
今天终于忍不住了。。。只好主动出击。。。
就不知道会有反应吗？希望尽快会有好的回应啦。。。

BLACK THURSDAY

Oh god ! What a damn shit boring day....
Stil in the office at this smoment....
shouldn't online...but canot tahan d....
6 pages of unsuccessful listing waiting to be settled by today...#$%^&*....
normally 1 page only take about 40min to settle...
today...1 page 1 hour ++ neh !
Big Problem ! i cant concentrate with my works at all....damn shit !
My mind keep on thinking something which is impossible...
NMD ! is your fault! can we have another plan?
i really wish can meet up with you....
there's a lots that i want to share with you.....
if we dint meet up this time...duno when can meet up again...
next year feb...i dnt think u have time to meet me...u have Gala 2009 at submit rite?
contact me pls....waiting for your reply....

醉到底是怎样的感觉？

好想好想尝试醉的感觉。。。
到底会有多high呢? 有多爽? 有多刺激? 有多飘?
对我而言。。。这些感觉都很陌生。。。
因为我不曾喝酒。。。怎样醉呢？
直到那一夜。。。我奉献了我的“第一次”。。。
尝试把 一瓶含量0.5% 酒精的 kampai 往肚子里kulut kulut (i learned this word from ST)。。。
味道还不赖。。。蛮好喝的。。。没有很重的酒味。。。
可是一点飘飘然的感觉也没有。。。很清醒。。。
想醉却醉不了。。。可怜。。。
突然很羡慕那些能醉的人。。。
曾经有人对我说。。。他很喜欢醉。。。
那种飘飘然的感觉让他好怀恋。。。
因为醉了之后，他才有勇气面对深爱的那个她。。。
看来这个办法还不赖。。。
好吧。。。找一天自己灌醉自己吧 ! 嘿嘿 ！
让我一次醉个够 ！
嗯。。。谁来陪我好呢？？

"November Fool"

TRUST...a good topic to discuss here...purposely share this with my 2 beloved friends....ST and XY....kekekeke....

"TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships.
When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship."

What a meaningful and good sentence...rite?
The story behind happened past few days ago...if not mistaken is 20th Nov...
That day...due to " shortage of pocket $$$"...i decided to stay at office and OT jz to earn extra RM35....7.30pm sharp...i quickly packed up all my stuffs and drove my "little cavalry" along from office (KL - near Pavilion) back to my house (PJ Section 14). It takes me around 35min to reached home. Jz wan to open the gate...i received a call from XY....asked me whether wan to have dinner together...at 1st i was thingking to cook maggie to save $$$ cz salary hvn credited...kekeke....However, XY mentioned wanna share a big secret with me...whithout any doubt...I TRUST HER....so consent to have dinner together...but actually i m 8....curious what is the big secret...While waiting for her i was guessing what is the big secret as XY seldom share secret with me...izzit boss tendered??? if yes...then die lo....shit lo...how m i goin to continue with this job?? sure i will have to follow up all those SHIT things....oh no ! cant imagine !!! o XY encounter any prob???Finally...XY reached my house...once i went into the car...immediately asked her what is the big secret....she answered me...."i quarrel with ST"...i really TRUST her.....so asked her what they quarrel about...izzit work matter?Then, with kindhearted, i told her that actually ST's style is like that...sometime the way she talk might be not nice to listen...but actually she jz kidding....then XY laugh....but i stil TRUST her....when reached to the shop....i get down from the car...suddently i saw someone was in the car as well which i dint notice it before that....duno you know whose that?@#$%^&*....ST was in the car !!!! oh SHIT !!!! I was fooling by XY and ST !!!! Wahahaha....They fooling me !!!!! They folling me !!!! But i dint get angry....cz i knw they also kiding nia...i always fooled ppl...so expected ppl will fool me back...kekeke.....but...XY...i wont TRUST you anymore ! wahaha ! and i will be back to revenge !!!! Wahahaa....u duno my theory rite...let me tell u ....有仇不报非人也 !!!!

mY veRy fiRst tiMe

Aloha !
Welcome to my guAt guAt's mEmoRies ciRcLe !
Kekeke...such a weird name...but match to the owner...
cz the owner also is a weird person. Wahahaha....
This is the first time i try to write something in my blog after created it for quite some long time. So...enjoy reading ya...even if u notice that the topics sharing are bored...but u have to read it till the end also...wahahaahaa...ENJOY !!!!!